today is my last day at work in ***

Initially tot i could just do patent search quietly in the office.. but i should have expected it. went to the lab, had meeting till lunch time. Yea yea I know we didn't achieved much during this internship. I dunno why she still go ask our progress is considered fast rite? as compared to ur past experience? obviously its a NO~ Then he had to think of a nicer way to put it across to her that we din achieve anything significant at all.. Anyways, this juz tells me something. Perhaps i'm just not suitable for research work. I think I cannot reach that level. I am too bimbotic!!! and i hate to hear results results results.. well.. so i'm really dreading working life.

After the meeting, went back for STEM. results were shit. attempted to do a little patent search while watching.. then after that went to cleanroom for sputtering.. And ta-da its 6pm! i dun need to do the patent search le. -_- but ya i'm glad its my last day. feel so bad for leaving my buddies there. They extended theirs to next week. but i refused to extend mine. But ya. thanks to the meeting in the morning, i am bombed with a presentation next week. bec they noe i'll be coming back for lessons in the morning.. -_-

so my internship sorta ended with a bad note isn't it? Besides the presentation, how many more times do u think i hafta go back? let's cross our fingers..

think today is a bad day. perhaps pms? possibly.. arrggghhhhh...

Finally tidied up my blog~~ having new cute blogskin feels great~

Recently I have been busy with my internship in a research institute.. It basically kept me occupied for the whole holidays. My life has been quite boring, either work till late or go dance or tuition after work. At least I had some time to meet up with some friends over the weekend, attend bdae parties and catch a movie or something. But i really feel like staying at home and just nua not just for a day, but i feel like nua-ing for a week or something. Haha. but this will nv happen bec rite after my intern ends, sch will start.

Before i start complaining abt my internship experience, let me reflect first. What are the good things or ppl i have encountered for these past 11 weeks? My supervisor is not that bad la. alot of ppl are willing to teach us. I met very cute friends like wenjie, qianlan and my personal assistant (HAHA.. guohui) I learn quite some things and i also got to know myself better. My initial intention of getting this internship was to let me have a feel of what's gg on in the research world. So i should be glad that i had a slight taste of it=)

These few days it just occurred to me that i have changed. The old me is optimistic, idealistic, full of energy, brushes away unhappy things easily, likes to organise lotsa gatherings with friends and leads a happening life. The new me is sick and tired of life, afraid to commit in anything, wants to nua at home and not go out, always complaining abt life.

I dun like the new me. I know deep down inside me, I've changed. Maybe it is not obvious to others.. bec last time i will always complain also but somehow i just felt that i was much more optimistic. my mentality, my whole attitude towards life is different. so i decided to go back to the old me =D i mean try but not go back to the exact old me. haha.. I think i've grown to become a person who needs time alone. unlike in the past, i felt happiest when i have ppl ard me.. hahah.. but i must change my attitude! I wanna be optimistic once again=) life isn't that bad after all right? I always knew that my life is good. even if i have problems or difficulties, i am always lucky to have ppl ard me to support me de.

so here's a fresh start =) to feel happy over small little things in my life! i'm glad i've a new blogskin =)

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by.

C) Continue this game by sending it to other people.


#1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
heartbroken of coz.. the feeling of ur heart sinking down..

#2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
everyone to be happy =D

#3. What will your dream wedding be like?
same as sok. no big lavish weddings. i really dun like to organise big events..but if i ever get married, i will wan my family and friends to be present. a wedding by the beach will be great=D nice decorations, pretty flowers, gorgeous gowns.. bride and groom must prepare a little sweet surprise for each other=) if possible, the wedding souvenirs will be handmade by us!!

#4. Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
yes. my attachment also confirmed something.. which is i really dislike research work..

#5. What’s your ideal lover like?
someone who is outgoing, understands and cares for me.

#6. Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
both goes tog. blessed only if the one i love loves me too..

#7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
what kinda wait.. it all deps.

#8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
talk to my girlfriends and then just pyscho myself i dun like him at all..

#9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
yes

#10. Is being tagged fun?
well.. can say so.. it actually pushes me to revamp my blog and then start posting after being mia for so long

#11. How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
old and haggard (and single..sobs) ...HAHAHA..

#12. Who are currently the most important people to you?
of coz family and close friends

#13. What kind of person do you think the one who tagged you is?
sok is unpredictable.. my good old friend.. HAHAHA =)

#14. Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
HELLO.. i wanna be rich and married =D

#15. What’s the first thing you do every morning?
wahahaha.. same same.. switch off my alarm-_-

#16. Would you give all in a relationship?
definitely

#17. If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
I dun think i'll fall in love with 2 simultaneously.. I believe my heart will know the answer when the time comes..

#18. What type of friends do you like?
basic: can get along with me. able to communicate. loves me =)
i have very different friends who do different things with me.
different friends i confide in different things.

#19. What type of friends do you dislike?
backstabbers of coz..

#20. If you have to choose between love and friendship, what would it be?
nah. i will nv choose one only. i believe there is always an option that allows me to have both. maybe there'll be some difficulties but i'll be firm and insist on choosing both..

8 lucky people: whoever does this juz click on the buttons on the left and tag on my board to let me know

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