i realise i am a veri complainy person.. i complain abt everything.. i am sian abt everything.. i tried thinking back.. was i lidat in the past? i rmbed myself as a veri cheerful and optimistic person who can forget her troubles easily.. but when i flipped back my diary to read.. i realise tt i am not such an optimistic person after all.. hahaz.. maybe i was trying to convince myself to be the kinda person i want to be.. but in any case, i supposed i was relatively more optimistic back then ba.. or i was juz so innocent tt i was contented with my life.. hahaz..

nowadays i get realli strange mood swings.. i can't rmb when it started.. i feel sad, suddenly out of no where.. it is not exactly due to problems i'm facing because i am not at the lowest point of my life now.. so i feel veri puzzled.. and it is not worth it.. i dun have much things to be sad abt.. why shud i feel sad?? and when i feel sad, i feel the need to come online.. i dunno how does it help.. sometimes i juz stared at the list of contacts and stone..

i think i need to be surrounded by friends, or juz ppl.. as long as i am with ppl, i wun feel tt sadness in me tt strongly.. hm.. i need to change!!! be back the person i used to be.. i think i was quite contented with my life last time though i had my ups and downs, i was able to think positively..

OK!!! i shall stop being a whiny and sulky girl.. coz my life isn't tt bad after all.. YUPZ.. ok.. i feel better=) shall go back to studying...